Danielle and Melissa, I love and respect both of you, but I only have to talk to Aishia tonight.
Aishia, it hurts to say this. I don't want to be bitter and hurt your feelings but I just... I need to get this off my chest.
The start of this game feels like so long ago, but I'm sure you remember our first conversation. I was prttty much having an inner panic attack, I had no idea what I was doing, and you were there to help me. I'm just gonna say this right now, I'm an awkward human being! (laughs) I don't connect well with other people. But with you, Aishia, I felt like I had made a true friend. And from the start of this game I was loyal to you and I thought - no, I KNEW - that you would be loyal to me too. You were my best friend out here, you helped me when I was vulnerable, and I trusted you with everything.
But-but... looking back... maybe I misjudged our relationship.
(Emilee pauses to compose herself).
The final 7 round was a total mess, we all know that. I didn't even know what was going on half the time. But a few minutes before we had to go to tribal, I remember being told by Grahame that you might be the target (and maybe I misinterpereted the comment but that's beside the point). I ran up to you, 5 minutes before the votes were read and risked throwing everything into even more craziness because I couldn't POSSIBLY vote you off, not my best friend!
5 minutes later, I was out of the game. It was only later when I realized that you had voted me out. My best friend had betrayed me, just like that!
And then, hearing you say at tribal tonight that I was trying to "stir stuff up", when all I had done was try to help you... it hurt, Aishia. I didn't want to leave this game feeling betrayed, I didn't want to be mad at anyone. I tried my hardest, but it stung, it really did. I couldn't help but wonder if you had just been using me this entire time. All I wanted in this game was to make my family proud of me and as this game went along, you helped me feel more confident in myself, like I was acheiving my goal, but now I just feel like an idiot! I thought I'd made a friend for life, but it seems like I've just made a fool of myself.
I still really want to vote for you, Aishia. I want to vote for you because you helped me so much on day 1, because you were my best friend, because I promised you that I'd always be by your side and I want to follow through with that... but I don't know if I even made that promise to the real Aishia, or someone who was just using me for a vote.
I just have one question for you: was our relationship REAL? Did it matter to you? That's all I want to know so that I can make peace with this ridiculous game...